Reality

Today is the 2nd day of the crash. I'm nearly at the bottom of the roller coaster again. Jeepers, I hate these days. (serious understatement)

Ya know, I've been sitting here for a couple of weeks thinking about how much better I've been feeling.....but that's relative.....better still isn't good.

And then today it struck me. For some odd reason, I've been walking around expecting to get better like I was gonna get over a cold or wait for a bone to heal. But in truth that's not the case. I've been lying to myself in the back of my mind. I have to remember that this is an incurable and permanent condition. I have to remember that Ed and I will deal with this for the rest of my life. It sucks.